How Fast it Goes

remembering my princess at 9 days old...I just don't know how to change as quickly as the time does...

images taken my good friend Shannon Livingston.

Me & M

                                                 Happy Little M

Mommy to Mommy - Sabrina Permuth

Matt keeps asking me what are the positives of parenthood?  As I tell him about all of the magazine articles detailing what to expect and all the sleepless nights... it is no wonder he feels that way now.  The thing is I can't put into words the feeling that comes from being a parent.  I never knew what love was until I fell in love with my son ten and half years ago... I have to tell you... I never could have loved Matt the way I do now if I hadn't first experienced the love between a mother and a child.

I stopped trying to explain to him what the positives of parenthood are because I know if just a few weeks he is going to discover them for himself.  The irony of parenthood is... yes it is the most difficult challenge anyone ever faces.  But we all keep doing it... because beyond words... parenthood is the most selflessly rewarding experience.  We get to experience innocence again.  I get to look into my eyes starring back at me or maybe it will be my smile or who knows that silly little expression I get when something strikes me just the right way and I get lost in the moment.  Children are amazing because they are like doorways into our own soles... but still different because TWO people came together to make them.

I am so excited about my daughters arrival... I can't wait to photograph her and freeze some of those first few magically moments right where they are.  I will always have them in my heart but boy... it sure is nice to have the actual paper (or digital image these days) to go back to... because it doesn't just bring back that one moment, but all the moments that lead up to it and surround it.  Everytime I look at our wedding pictures I get a different story... you are incredible!  I can't wait to do it all again with Sydney!!!

From one dreamer to the next... talk to you again soon.

Sabrina

Around the World

Not that I love to show off my son's very messy room, but I thought I would share with you all his love for the world and learning about new places. The best thing we did for his room was get him a world map. Everyday we practice the places and talk about where we would like to go. There is no pressure if he wants to stop for the time, but he is inspired to know more about the world and the people in it. We have Africa corner, Eiffel Towers, Big Ben's, the Planets, some stars...we are currently in search of the Pyramids in Egypt.We decided to make his room a beautiful, messy, piece of art that teachs him about whatever he wants to know. I am so proud of him....

My G as Peter Pan in his messy room.

Good Morning New Life

I am starting a blog, yes, another one. I also blog for our photography business, photos are the only thing besides my children and family, that provide me with the same passion as they do. But I am ready to honest with myself, my children have taken over my being, my whole self and life. I am with them everyday: morning, noon and night, sometimes very far into the night.I find more joy in watching them build castles out of cheese and making pirate cupcakes then I do in, well almost everything. If I could make a living photographing their every second on earth, I would be there in a heartbeat.  
So, if anyone knows me from my professional life, let me re-introduce you to the me that lives everyday for my family. I have a husband, 3 children, lets call my 7 month old M, for Madison, my 3 year old G, for Gavin, and my 9 year old B, for Brendan, and my dog S, for Sadie or S for save me from all these little grabby hands and bouncing boys. We are all growing, changing, learning everyday about what we are all made of. Having and raising children is by far the most difficult task I have ever attempted. It is like the 24 hour ER, gourmet snack bar, therapy session, janitorial position, with some extra exhaustion on the side. Not to mention it comes as the most emotionally invested job you have ever had or thought possible.  It is transforming, metamorphosing, I don't think there is anything else quite like motherhood.
My hope is just to share with other Moms, bounce ideas off each other, tell stories, laugh in those 2 minutes I get to myself before bed before the next disaster happens. I really don't know if I am doing this all the right way, so mabe if anyone is listening you can help...

M

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