A Day of Rest

 The smell of coffee in the morning & the big newspaper, family gatherings & park playgrounds, health & love. Thank you God for Sundays.

my angel's (M's) toes early Sunday morning

Secret Wishes

I am so blessed to have my 2 strong boys and my princess..time to time, such as last night at my photo session with these three beautiful girls, I mourn my loss of the thought that I could ever have 3 girls...It was always a dream of mine to create my own little girly heaven...mommy and girls..sisters..shopping...secrets..weddings.etc... I am posting a few photos from last night. These girls will always have each other to share shoes and heartaches with. What is better then that?
 I guess God meant me to spend all of my girly energy (& money & time) on one perfect angel and she is just that...God's gift to me..

Hey You!!

You all only see the cute side....

"The mother-child relationship is paradoxical and, in a sense, tragic. It requires the most intense love on the mother's side, yet this very love must help the child grow away from the mother, and to become fully independent." The Sane Society

Kids and Cameras Know How...

I thought I may share with you all a small list of my tips for life with kids and cameras.

1. Always have your camera loaded, charged and ready for action. I place mine on my (very high) kitchen counter. If I waited to pull out my camera for posed moments I would miss my real life. When G puts frosting on M' nose, or when B is painting quietly at the table, icecream sundae night and mac and cheese lunches, this is real life (at least mine, some people are shopping for purses and sipping fruity drinks).
2. Photograph your children's rooms, it will mean a lot to them and you in the future.
3. Put them in good lighting (always turn off the flash)
4. Drop your expectations for nice posed photos and you just might get the best ones you have ever taken.
5. Back up all of your photos to disks and external harddrives. If you don't have the time now to scrapbook or create albums (what is free time again?), at least make your children disks of all the photos you take, they are cheap and they are priceless.
6. Hire a professional (like me) haha.. or at least get some photos with you in them...your kids will want to see you too.
7. Every once in a while dress up and have some photos taken of just you. I think it is good to look at yourself as a person, a woman, not just a Mom. Buy a colorful scarf,, a new outfit, give these photos to your kids so they can pass them on to thier kids and someday a child will say "this is my Great Grandmother, isn't she beautiful."
8. Here is a tip that has saved me shelves and shelves of space, lots of worry and guilt. You can't throw away your childs art, you can't save every peice, and the ones you do want to save start to fall apart. I photograph every peice of art on the day it comes home with my children holding it and the art by itself. So 2 photographs, I catogories digital files by year and age, and back them up to harddrives, etc. When they grow up and I am sitting with my tissues in thier empty rooms, I want to choose my favorites from the files and print them large for the walls.
9. Leave your camera at home. I don't recommend this often, but for example: My G and I now have a G and Mommy morning, 2 hours. He wanted to go to the beach and I, of course, start packing up the camera gear. I started thinking, I have the towels, our picnic, his favorite action figures, and what if my little boy wants me to carry him. Now, I have my 8 month old M that I am always holding and to be honest I jump at the chance where I have free arms to hold my little boy again..but I can't if I have my camera. I put the camera down and instead we chose shells, painted them for memories, and I hugged, held and cherished my G and my time with him.
10. Buy a good camera! It is worth it. Your not just a Mom. HA! Among all of your other duties, it is your job to document history for your children and all future generations.

Sweet Dreams...

How Fast it Goes

remembering my princess at 9 days old...I just don't know how to change as quickly as the time does...

images taken my good friend Shannon Livingston.

Me & M

                                                 Happy Little M

Mommy to Mommy - Sabrina Permuth

Matt keeps asking me what are the positives of parenthood?  As I tell him about all of the magazine articles detailing what to expect and all the sleepless nights... it is no wonder he feels that way now.  The thing is I can't put into words the feeling that comes from being a parent.  I never knew what love was until I fell in love with my son ten and half years ago... I have to tell you... I never could have loved Matt the way I do now if I hadn't first experienced the love between a mother and a child.

I stopped trying to explain to him what the positives of parenthood are because I know if just a few weeks he is going to discover them for himself.  The irony of parenthood is... yes it is the most difficult challenge anyone ever faces.  But we all keep doing it... because beyond words... parenthood is the most selflessly rewarding experience.  We get to experience innocence again.  I get to look into my eyes starring back at me or maybe it will be my smile or who knows that silly little expression I get when something strikes me just the right way and I get lost in the moment.  Children are amazing because they are like doorways into our own soles... but still different because TWO people came together to make them.

I am so excited about my daughters arrival... I can't wait to photograph her and freeze some of those first few magically moments right where they are.  I will always have them in my heart but boy... it sure is nice to have the actual paper (or digital image these days) to go back to... because it doesn't just bring back that one moment, but all the moments that lead up to it and surround it.  Everytime I look at our wedding pictures I get a different story... you are incredible!  I can't wait to do it all again with Sydney!!!

From one dreamer to the next... talk to you again soon.

Sabrina